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I am on a crusade to make myself strong, fit and healthy. I have been doing the ww for 3 weeks now and am starting to see results and yesterday was my first real day exercising. I thought in the past that my inactivity was the cause of some additional poundage, but I see now that my eating habits have been a huge factor. All in all, I'm excited about my recent success and now that I am adding movement I can't wait to see what happens.
Other than that I am enjoying work and yet struggling internally. I need to step back, be glad that I have a job and keep on keepin' on. I am planning a trip to Argentina. My solo trip to Spain has been scrapped for a trip to the Paris of South America with good old Mom. The more i read my book on BA, the more excited I get!
alright, gotta walk the doggies.
on my stove, in my oven, on my counter and in my belly have been the following:
TVP Meatloaf - very yummy, experimenting with different ingredients
Sweet Potatoes - complete with vegan marshmallows I got online that actually bake like real marshmallows
Hummus - perfecting my technique. though I had it, until my mom brought hers over for Thanksgiving. damn!
Spinach Lasagna - this was last night, and has really grown on me.
For the lasagna I used fresh spinach, no boil lasagna and a mixture of soft tofu, fresh thyme and other dried herbs, fresh garlic nutritional yeast and a little splash of soymilk for "cheese". Next time I make it I will make more tofu mixture, with the same amount of herbs, garlic, etc. and do more layers in a smaller pan. the piece de resistance was a light sprinkling of bread crumbs on top - really yummy.
All of these meals have been completely Vegan, for me and my sweetie, and pretty enjoyable. My only "beef" with the meatloaf has been that it is kinda dry. I am going to try to substitute celery for part of the onions in it and maybe use larger breadcrumbs. I'll let you know.
Other than that we added a little girl to our family - henrietta. I call her mini-girl, since she is so tiny compared to pedro. I think she is 7 pounds to his 20. she is 6 months, rambunctious and loves having her belly scratched.
I'm working, enjoying my new role and re-evaluating. Photo shoots and a creative co-op are on the horizon. I plan on dusting off my sewing machine (it's never been used) and experimenting - hello fabulousness!
forgive me, I am going to go tape my paper snowflakes I made last night to my front door window. if it ain't snowing, just fake it!
- Location:the couch, with the dogs
so its almost the new year and snip snip... hair is cut. feels free. shorter hair for the first time in a few years. nice gifts from all. i am thankful for good friends and people who are true.
now i am at home telling myself to go to bed (since i have to be up at 545) but still sitting here and watching 'home alone'. ah well
merry xmas night to all in the land...
- Mood:
contemplative
better go dust off the marilyn/tippi hedren/baby doll/marie antoinette wig!
just sitting here at home, listening to a cd i made someone a loooong time ago. so very strange, to hear songs you used to love and wanted to share with someone you kinda liked. now all these years later it's just not there. any of it. just the songs and memories of how they used to make you feel.
ahh, nostalgia. get's you every damn time.
eating quite possibly the yummiest grapes i've had in years. really, that good. i can see the bottom of my kitchen sink for the first time in a week. that feels good.
this week i will be (and not in this order)
a baby doll - not a cute, look at me, sexy baby doll, but a fucked up old one that scared you as a child one.
warhol's monroe - hey, it suited me a few years back, it can suit me again.
tippi hedren in the birds - same as above, though i think fewer people will get it than that one year.
marie antoinette - though i'm not sure if pre or post giullotine will do...
and something else. oh yeah, corpse bride. where is a veil when you need one.
off to take a walk with pedro in the crisp night air.
au revoir.
- Mood:
nostalgic - Music:sigur ros
in other news, the weather is so nice right now, i love it.
i'm back at work after a vacation spent nursing myself back to health from minor illness.
i just found out that i will be working every day until nov. 2nd. my last day off was on mon... so that's a two week stretch. awesome!
still waiting for various funds to come in... work a job for 5 years and they still can't pay you on time when it counts. oh well...
where do i start!?!??
i am sorting through the old school sheets my mom dropped off this morning. seriously. old. school. they are all at least 20+ years old, one of them being a 30 year old Yves St. Laurent graphic print set from the 70's. sooo great. some of them are going straight to goodwill.
other things id like to do today:
throw shit out.
put tools in the new toolbox.
break down pedro's crate (hooray!)
find out where to get paper sleeves for cd's so i can throw out at least one old suitcases worth of jewel cases.(this really gets me... do i recycle them? are they recyclable even? they just take up space, and lets face it, most of my cds are scratched and will never go back on record store shelves)
organize and purge make-up from my kit.
get out my airbrush and get practicing!!
get rid of all the stuff cluttering the floors so i can sweep/mop/vacuum ENTIRE house.
please, let me have the focus and determination to do all of these tasks and more!
- Mood:
lethargic
ten(give or take) glorious days of the transition into fall.
my main porjects:
get rid of the mattress
get rid of my old VW.
clean and purge the house like it's going out of style.
oh yeah, and movies, wig shopping, music downloading and dogwalking afternoons.
hooray tomorrow and 90 degrees as a high!.
ps. i fucking love my new moods!
- Mood:
happy
| Your Birthdate: August 22 |
 While sometimes employing unorthodox approaches, you are capable of handling large scale undertakings. You assume great responsibility and work long and hard toward completion. Often, especially in the early part of life, there is rigidity or stubbornness, and a tendency to repress feelings. Idealistic, you work for the greater good with a good deal of inner strength and charisma. An extremely capable organizer, but likely to paint with broad strokes rather than detail. You are very aware and intuitive. You are subject to a good deal of nervous tension. |
especially the last part.
i hate today.
LJ Interests meme results
- color:
Color instills emotions in me that I cannot do justice describing. Some of my favorite colors: the way the fading afternoon sunlight makes everything look as if it were dripping golden honey; the vibrant arizona sunsets that make you gasp; the melancholy of the blues and greys that infest clouds in approaching storms; the fieriness of reds, oranges and shocking pinks and the richness of turquoise and vibrant greens. oh, and brown - hey, it's all the colors mixed together. - fall:
Bar none my favorite season, although true autumns exist mostly in my mind. Fall in arizona comes late, but the crispness of the air at night is so wonderful. Sweaters, cozy socks, wool caps, pumpkins - all wonderful spoils that fall has to offer. Fall is orange, gold, rich brown and russet reds and then christmas comes and the hues all turn cold. I love to walk through fallen leaves and hear the crunch they make beneath my shoes. - flowers:
Maybe it's because I was named after them, but I adore flowers. I guess the amazing colors that nature concocts could be one reason. but maybe it's the delicacy of the idea of a flower - fragile, femenine, fragrant - met with the wonder of nature. I love fresh flowers - when I can afford them I take them home and always always arrange them according to my mood, usually in my antiqued aqua mason jars. - live performances:
There is something about seeing a band live that makes the music concrete. If it's a band you truly love then it is magic. I've been to a lot of live performances, some in big theaters, others in small rooms or basements. I haven't been to see a band i adored in a long time. Maybe that feeling I used to get when I listened to certain cd's is fading as the artists get less and less intimate - the music less tactile. But I still remember every single performance I've witnessed. - make-up:
It's what I do. I love it and hate it. the ultimate dichotomy of art that one loves to do, yet ultimately leads to the artist's demise. Like all artists I go through my battles: am i good, mediocre, etc; periods come and go leaving me void of creativity, etc.
Sometimes I want to go on with my life and do other things, but I can't imagine turning my back on something that i love. - my bike:
thanks to Matt, I have a beautiful blue and white cruiser. I used to ride it more when we lived in tempe, although now that the weather is improving, I look forward to getting it out, dusting off the seat and seeking new adventures in central phoenix. - reading books:
and collecting books. Even today, came home with 2 new books. Something I get from my mother. I love reading. I always look for libros en espanol to add to my collection that, in my mind, will come in handy when I decide to get my masters degree. Reading allows me to go back to that time when i was a full time dreamer and create little worlds in my head. my favorite authors take me to places i've never been and allow me to see new things, even if it's in my head. - smiles:
Smiles are so personal, so much more intimate than someone assumes.
A real smile comes from the heart and can change your life, or the life of a stranger. It means eye contact, acknowledgment and the movement of muscles on ones face. It sparks love, inspires forgiveness, instills hope, begins and ends with friendship - it is a little remnant of your heart that you give to each person upon whom you bestow your smile. - tea:
I love tea. to me, tea is not a drink, but an experience. When i make a cup of tea, I am emulating, in some small way, the habits of my mother. Tea is hot water, fragrant little bags of unassuming leaves that upon contact with said water, emit aroma and taste upon your tastebuds. Tea is a specially chosen cup that you can hold just so, while you settle in to your favorite spot, be it a bed, a chair or a sofa or a bench, where you can admire the scenery, read a book, look out a window, or savor a conversation. - the ocean:
I love the smell of the ocean, the feel of the water on my skin, the feeling of ocean water in my hair. Watching a sunrise or sunset over the california coast is magnificent. one of my dreams is to at some point in my life live by the beach so that i can experience the joy of the ocean everyday.
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- Mood:
relaxed - Music:sleepy jackson
My little pedrito, nino mio.
So for the past year or so we have slept on my very first mattress. I call it thus, because it was the first real piece of furniture in my empty little Las Vegas apartment. $150 for a queen saved from a co-worker's garage... nearly new and a dream... then.
Now, it is freaking uncomfortable and I swear that now there are three of us sleeping on it, my nights sleep has gotten worse. I wake up cranky all the time (although matt swears this is nothing new). So we decide its time for a new mattress and thanks to MAC I decide to put my bonus to good use.
As we go to ikea yesterday to decide which bed we will purchase during their 20% off sale this weekend we stop by the as is section and lo and behold... a brand new king sized mattress. half off. hooray. yay. the giddiness ensued.
the acadamy would like to thank...
so now i am just waiting for the delivery men. I can't wait to get some new sheets.
other than that i am just really sick of people not being able to speak up and say something when the time is right.
didn't work.
Matt and I welcomed little Pedro into our home on monday, the day of my 25th birthday.
He is a chihuahua mix, but he really looks like a mini german shepherd.
He has beautiful little eyes and ears.
He is a little mischevious at times, but mostly calm.
He acts like he's tough, but he really is afraid of the big dogs.
We heart him. and the name is sticking.
My little Pedrito.
Other than that, things are going well.
Just waiting for fall.
and Sam and Jon's wedding.
- Mood: happy
- Music:ac newman
i am drinking coffee that i bought from lux. it is sooo good. why did i settle for starbucks?? this coffee is so good, i can drink it with plain silk and no sugar. i do love my plain silk. the vanilla is too sweet for me, i like it in my soy lattes cause its my sugar substitute in those... anyways.
friday night i will be the nerd with the harry potter book in my hands. next morning i will wake up early to drive to kierland for a photo shoot. oh tommy bahama... jamaica, ooh i wanna take ya.
NYC in LESS than 7 days, to be exact, including today, i leave in six days. what to take with me!? yesterday i took out my nice pile of old clothes and purses and purged at two different buffalo exchanges. i also decided to not ever take clothes to the one on missouri again, as they were not very pleasant and passed on a lot of nice clothes with the very friendly girl in tempe was very excited for. just goes to show... so yeah, 20 bucks for my trip, one e-ba and a ticket to the wierd war show later, and i did ok. well, im bitter in my heart for having spent lots of money on clothes that i never wore or wore once (the 78 banana repubs pants that had the tag on it, which i got like 8 dollars for... oh well)
i wanna know i wanna know i wanna know.
my fingers are crossed.
- Mood:
anxious - Music:lost in translation lp
looking forward and yet, am apathetic about big changes that could come my way. oh well...
headache, might take a nap.
- Mood:
blah
today i got free mini ice-creams for the store from starbucks and picked up an application...
NO!!!! I am not leaving my job... i heart it too much. But... a little side thing, small, but fun to get my energy out somewhere else and feed my caffeine addiction, all the while putting it back in my wallet, well...
So, I think I might get a once a week gig at the old s-t-a-r-bucks. the manager who is nice seemed excited. maybe i could pay for that damned tooth. GEEZ!
went to (what i call 'aerobic') yoga with my friend/coworker. that class moves a little too fast for me, i get a better stretch with some of the other ones ive taken, but i guess it's all knowing your comfort level and doing what works best for you.
found out more people went for the Bilt. than i thought. all i can do is think good thoughts and cross my fingers. still a while til i even get a 2nd you know what. IF i do. (I hope I do!)
my hair is SOOO long, i need to cut it soon, and when i say 'cut' i mean 'tenille, please get rid of all the dead nastiness, but LEAVE THE LENGTH!' I can't wait til i'm sick of it and i chop it all off. or most of it.
ok, im kinda rambling.
a little bit of nostalgic sadness.
drove by plaid tonight and saw that the muse is closed, the coffee shop that once was higher grounds that i visited in high school, which was right next to plaid, well, it's closed. the owners were nice and i wish them the best. sad to see things like that gone. plaid already is in my book, the good old plaid, the one that didn't have beer signs in the windows. oh well, things change every day, and all you can really do is embrace it.
- Mood:diminutive!
- Music:spoon
made awesome spaghetti tonight. browned some veggie sausage, heated up some marinara, sauteed some yellow squash and zucchini, set fire to a paper towel while boiling water for the pasta (some things really take getting used to... gas stove vs. electric is one of them), all in all, im very happy with my little meal, plus leftovers for days!
watched the king kong trailer. get awesome!
really want to see willy wonka on the 15th, but... also want to see wedding crashers! such decisions.
contrary to two of the movies i've just showed interest in seeing, i am SO sick of hollywood and it's latest trick of regurgitating scripts. fun with dick and jane remake? fucking COME on. theres this short story carlos fuentes wrote que me impresiono mucho. I would LOVE to see this as a movie. inarritu could direct in that fucked up street poetic style of his... gael (my other mexican boyfriend) could play the main character... who for the girl though. I would rather see it done in spanish, but what a fucking movie it would be. maybe i should start by writing a script...
sometimes i wish i was that girl again.
though im glad that many things have ended or passed.
alright, time to get pretty. the text said "wear sequins and look hot"
should be interesting!
- Music:bowie, david.
internet works again,
NOW if only my outlets in the bedroom worked... damned storm (i secretly loved it, though did not love the power going out for 5 hours...)
my computer and desk are now in my kitchen :)
i just put together my new bathroom bookshelf from ikea... why do i spend so much there? and really, on relatively little.
matt and i speak rather sporadically. if they are going to keep touring he's gonna need to keep me on the phone longer.
other than that i am slightly lonely and spending way too much time isolated in my house for someone who really does have friends. i should call them...
i should be cleaning now, but don't really want to. i think tonight i shall rent movies and eat pasta and salad while drinking lots of wine. that sounds fun.
and hopefully the crazy homeless guy won't come bother me while i'm enjoyind an evening cigarette this time. nothing puts a damper on your night than a man declaring he's not schizo or crazy who then continues to say that "you gotta listen to your classic rock, man. you gotta know the right tunes" which apparantly include a) stone temple pilots and b) pearl jam, for he quoted both songs while talking about jesus and how god doesn't exist and how jesus gave birth to god and they are the same. actually, i think that dude made my night. pass it on, sir. pass it on.
- Mood:presumptious
- Music:sick lipstick
I remember when back in the day summer had the word "vacation" attached to it. that was great.
right now I am a little tired. a little grumpy that i skipped that yoga class tonight, but glad that i didnt go cause I've got a case of Franco's revenge (not as hardcore as Moctezuma's, trust me) and that just doesn;t make that damn sun salutation any brighter.
I'm reading "For Whom the Bell Tolls" right now. I forgot how EH really draws you in with his fantastic prose. poor matt, it's hard trying to fall asleep when the lights in your eyes and you keep hearing pages turn. Work is busy. busier than i imagined.
i am getting my first ever facial this saturday and then a yoga class at barbs - 3 pm.
I think tomorrow I might buy my ticket to ny. I can't hold out any longer on the jet blue for fear that i will get my wish for a sale, but alas, that my dream flight will be booked. oh my god, i can;t wait.
hope all is well.
- Mood:fanciful
- Music:shins
